A little bit of my experience re-told sometimes sounds bitter, at least i sometimes think it does. At times i am bitter, i won’t lie. At other times i am angry and often i find myself laughing at the absurdity of it all.

It’s absurd because i started out never wanting any reward for what i was doing. I then started to see the reward that others were getting and perhaps i got a little bit of pride or arrogance. I started to think of the time i would spend on a poster or a logo, the evenings when i would be glued to my laptop and Cherith would understand, because she knew i was passionate about this thing & it’s impact.

I started to resent the time i now saw as a waste, so that some other guys could sing a few songs and get “paid.” I started to resent being constantly told that there was no money in this ‘thing’ when i knew that was a lie. I started to resent the whole thing, everything about it! I have never wanted much, perhaps some token of gratitude would have prevented my breaking point? I feel like i have been on a journey though, a good one, a worthwhile one. I feel like i have cast aside a burden or two and here is why…..

For the foreseeable future i will not go to “Christian Concerts/events” (to be followed up with “no more Christian music” which will explain more)
I will NOT be involving myself in any promotion of  ANY “Christian Concerts” (unless met by a certain criteria, also explained later)
Freelance design work will be reduced to an absolute minimum with NO new work accepted for the foreseeable future (explanation to follow during the re-launch of this site)

So, if you were thinking of inviting me to a “Concert” or asking me to “design” something, DON’T!! I have a wife and a job and also a Church to contribute to, that will do nicely!

p.s This post is not a criticism of “Christian artists/singers” being “paid” for their work. It is based purely on my own personal experience.